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In my first year of Motherhood, I have gone through a roller coaster of emotions . I've felt moments of pure bliss and moments of tribulation. But it has been the most profound 365 days of my life. Parenthood is all about downwards and upwards, each time I hold you, your body melts into mine, melting me heart and takes away my anxiety. I have never been so blissfully happy in all of my life. I honestly never thought I could love anyone, the way I love you.
So today on your 1st Birthday, I made you a simple letter about the most beautiful memories you created in your first year of existence.
All the sleepless nights has long gone. You are now an energetic little boy. I remember the first time I've held you in my arms you were so light like a feather but now my back begins to ache as I life you up. Your giggles is the most beautiful sound in the entire world. You give me proud smirk each time you try to stand up and walk. You didn't want to sleep in your own bed because co-sleeping with Daddy and Mommy made you feel more safer. Every morning you gazed at me with your sweetest smile, then would reach out to me, bite my cheeks with so much endearment. Your wide smile with your ridiculously teeth flips my entire day upside down in the best kind of way. You are so courageous, gracious, and a social butterfly sweet boy. You love to make other people smile especially me.
oh Karson, you have become and grown up love and be loved, each day you have astonished and gained self-confidence, you were once so very fragile and now you have become a tough little boy, you are learning and going through obstacles but I will promise you that I will always be there to support you, from your very first step that you are still trying to accomplish to holding up your bottle of milk on your own, and many more life events thrown at you. I am the luckiest mama in the world to be able to accumulate moments like these in my heart.
I will always accept you my son for who you are, and what you grow up to become. I will preach to you and make sure that you put God first. to always remember that life will always not turn out the way you plan it to be, but accept the challenges, to put others before yourself.
I pray to God to bless you with bucketful amounts of love, good health, and everlasting happiness. I love you with all my heart baby boy.
Happy 1st Birthday Hans Karson!